Everything else is thriving in spite of me

When I weeded in the dark a few nights ago, I did tear out some fledgling raspberry bushes; they truly looked like weeds that were not only yellowed, withered and put out of their misery, but old and lost. But other than that mis-pull, thanks to stepdaughter, we are done in the backyard. She helped the old people in the hot sun unload bark and compost, and lay it all down for us. I have 4 bags left to sprinkle about, a little painting on my garage door sun figure then food.
Its heading for the 90s today; the watering is done; the laundry is caught up; errands this morning should getter done! Carpets to shampoo, front porch to paint, cooking starts tonight. Oldest daughter and her beau are flying out of SF for PDX tonight; we will see them Sat! They are riding in with son and his gf from PDX. I am pretty sure I will be very overwhelmed with it all, when you add all the families, college roommates, Alexa's friends, our friends, and co-workers. Quite the hoedown.
Baccalaureate came last night on the heels of an 11 hour work day. I was dripping with sweat all day from the hot and cold air conditioning at work coupled with middle age plus---new medicine combination and had time to only come home, take a "spit bath" and run up to the church. As with many of the mandatory functions for my kids over the years, I found myself to the point of so close to too tired to appreciate the moment. And again, as with many of the same functions, I found myself letting go of work and life things and leaning, relaxing into the program. I enjoyed the new age church hymns, but most of all, watching my youngest daughter's face as she walked into the church in her cap and gown: she looked tentative and a little slouchy. When she left, holding her small lit candle, she was standing up straight with more purpose it seemed--and her eyes were a little weepy: so were her mom's.
The program almost lasted too long, but at the exact moment it needed to end, it did.
I am gratefully off work until next Wed. I plan to enjoy, enjoy, enjoy, enjoy.....
TTFN