20 thangs and let the sun shine!

I was supposed to sleep in this morning, but instead its a 4:30 wake up. I am just going with my body these days. I am not in charge, my middle age body is.

The list below is from a Facebook funny, where you type your name and the word "needs" into your favorite search engine, then create a list from the responses that make sense to you. *Yes time could be better spent, but aren't we all reading the Internet in lieu of doing other things?

Here is my list:
Google says Deb needs. . .
1.Deb needs help with whole words.
2. Deb needs a saddle.
3. Deb needs to police this forum to keep it troll-free.
4. Deb needs toilet paper.
5. Deb doesn't know what she needs!
6. deB nEeDs C o F fe E tImE
7. Deb needs cash, stat!
8. Deb needs a second guitarist (are you busy?)
9. Deb needs to look behind her!
10. Deb needs to trim her Chinese Pistache!
11. Deb needs money so she can buy advertising and print!
12. Deb needs a maid.
13. Deb needs to have no doubt!
14. Deb needs a truck!
15. Deb needs a variety in her undies.
16. Deb needs to just nourish her hair to restore it.
17. Deb needs to have a little fun.
18. Deb needs to stop bullies.
19. Deb needs to be installed.
20. Deb needs your help to get back to Austin!

Yesterday I left for work in a good mood; by the time I got home, I was unpleasant. And I was admittedly unpleasant at work when a peer co-worker (not a supervisory co-worker, a peer and also someone I enjoy) decided a process in a program I manage needed adjustment based on her observation of a one time faux paus which occurred because of a management failure to communicate down some pertinent, tho not critical information. I was unhappy she decided to take charge (I don't report to her), was unhappy she interjected herself into the process when in truth she is not available most of the time to review the part of the process she said needs review. I took offense for many reasons and to my shame, showed my impatience with her thoughts which were based on her observation rather than facts. All of this is very petty in the main, but was more telling of my need to cowboy up my game face when faced with criticism. I will be working on that.
A former mentor told me years ago a professional is one who never lets their true feelings take over. The dialogue must always remain professional no matter the topic, no matter who is in the hot seat. I failed on all counts, I was defensive many times over, I was downright prickly and very impatient and it all showed in spades. This is my age showing. When I came home I was all poopy about it too. Anything James said, I was contrary. I was not a nice person most of the night. I kept turning the interaction over and over in my head. I boiled it down to this: I am used to being in charge of my own program, have done it for years and I miss it. After I came to that conclusion, I put myself to bed.
Today will be a good day; I will it so.
Let the sunshine!